I am so thankful right now that tomorrow is Sunday- a much needed day of rest. I feel entirely worn out, emotionally & physically. I can only imagine how Mr. Anthony must feel right now… as well as Mrs. Amber’s sister, April; her mom, Laura; and her dad, Mitch. Please, please pray for these people!
I had meant to post these few songs several days ago, but have not really had time yet:
Amber Mathenia’s Favourite
(or, one of them)
Here is love, vast as the ocean,
Loving-kindness as the flood,
When the Prince of life, our ransom,
Shed for us His precious blood.
Who His love will not remember?
Who can cease to sing His praise?
He can never be forgotten
Throughout Heaven’s eternal days.
On the Mount of Crucifixion
Fountains opened deep and wide;
Through the floodgates of God’s mercy
Flowed a vast and gracious tide.
Grace and love, like mighty rivers,
Poured incessant from above,
And heaven’s peace, and perfect justice
Kissed a guilty world in Love.
One of the ladies at our Wednesday night ladies prayer meeting mentioned this song while praying for Mr. Anthony in particular…
“Hold Me Jesus”
Sometimes my life just don’t make sense at all
When the mountains look so big
And my faith just seems so small
So hold me Jesus ’cause I’m shaking like a leaf
You have been King of my glory
Won’t You be my Prince of Peace?
It is so hard sometimes to have faith enough, to have faith that our God is faithful, although my life proves that He most certainly is faithful… He will not leave us, nor forsake us. He is faithful, I know He is, but it at times becomes so hard to remember. Yet now, even wile it is so hard to remember it is also quite easy at the same time, because Christ is with me even now, I know that He is will me. I am not sure the exact quote, but Rutherford said something, something like “whether Christ comes bearing a rod or a crown, if He come Himself with it, it is well”.
It is my prayer that many will come to Christ, and that those who know Him already may come to a deeper understanding of Him even in the midst of this difficult time.
How full of Joy must Mrs. Amber’s face be right now! The hardships that once saddened her are gone, and the sins that we struggle with still are a thing of the past for her. Now, she is with God, now, she is surrounded by all of the saints who have gone before us: Paul the Apostle, Amy Carmichael, Samuel Rutherford, John the Baptist, Moses, Noah- and there, there face to face with her is our Christ! I cannot begin to imagine what is must be like, what it looks like and what it feels like, to be free from sin and everything that comes with it. But she knows. She is there, right now.
There will come a time in all of our lives when all of the work which Christ had for us here will be finished, and He will take us to be with Him. There will come a time also when that point will come in the life of someone we love. I do not know about everyone else, but for me, this is long before my human time for Mrs. Amber to leave. To us, who do not know God’s eternal plan, it seem so early for her to leave us: we were not ready for her to go. Yet Christ saw fit to take her to Himself. It hurts, but all mixed with the hurt is a Joy which I cannot begin to express, the Joy of knowing that this is not the end at all, and there really never actually is an end.
“There is nothing but perfect garden-flowers in Heaven, and the best plenishing that is there is Christ” -Samuel Rutherford
O Christ, He is the fountain,
The deep, sweet well of love;
The streams of earth I’ve tasted,
More deep I’ll drink above;
There, to an ocean fullness,
His mercy doth expand,
And glory, glory dwelleth
In Immanuel’s land.
-Anne Ross Cousin